AAAARRRRRRRGGGH!!!!

[krossero]

Jeeezus!  My dad hasn't given me a guilt trip this rough for a *long* time.  Really driving the stake in, here.  Agh!  He's just so....GRRRR!

*can't even put thoughts down coherently, leaving now to slam head repeatedly against wall*

bastard bastard bastard bastard!

Comments

[betagoddess.livejournal.com]

I have a book called "Toxic Parents" that helped me out a long time ago. Sounds like your Dad is one of them, too.

Try to stop those tapes from playing over and over in your head! I know it's hard.

::biggest hugs::

[krossero.livejournal.com]

I'm actually remarkably good at forgetting these things. Sorta have to be. By the morning, I'll only feel a bit peeved. It's actually a little annoying that I can't hold onto even a scrap of righteous anger, but I don't do confrontations well.

[betagoddess.livejournal.com]

You're probably a lot less stressed that way. I learned by the time I was in the thirties that my Dad was never going to change, but I could change the way I reacted to him so I did and it was an immense help.

Good luck!

[krossero.livejournal.com]

Yeah, I do think that in the long run, it's better and healthier for me to not be able to hold onto my anger, much better than bottling it up like I used to.

You're right; sometimes people just don't change. I'm afraid that my dad might be one of those people who never does.

Thanks for your advice. It's always a help to hear from others who know what I'm going through.

*smooches*